1028) On Saturday at midnight (going on to Sunday), my boyfriend broke up with me. I don’t know what to do anymore. We’ve been dating since october 27th, 2009. Our second year anniversary was only 5 days away. He told me he was unhappy but he wouldn’t tell me why or with what.
Our small group of friends are also upset. We were the couple of the school. The one people looked at and said “I want THAT kind of relationship” the one who was said to get married and live a happy life. I thought we were happy. But he told me he wasn’t and that for 3 months he had all these feelings he couldn’t share. I just dont understand. I want to know why he is so unhappy or why he wouldn’t talk to me for so long, what did i do wrong, or why he let his feelings build, or even why he decided to break things off so close to our 2nd year anniversary. I miss him so much and I love him. I don’t know how to get him back into my life. Everything i do reminds me of him. I just can’t let him go. He says he wants to be friends until he can figure things out and i wanna help him but he wont let me in. He’s hiding something and im desperately trying to find out what. My whole family, all my friends, even a lot of teachers were crushed by the fact we aren’t together anymore. I wanna go back to being happy with the one i truly love, He ment everything to me. He was my first boyfriend, first kiss, first guy to hold my hand, first one to call me beautiful, first to pull me from my sad feelings, first for a lot of things. I just dont understand, how can i go from you being my true love to staying with just friends? I want you back in my life and im miserable without you. My health has gone so low, I haven’t eaten or slept in 3 days. I keep throwing up (not purposefully). My parents and friends are begging me to eat but I just can’t. This whole thing is going to kill me. I’m afraid for myself. I just miss you so much and love you so much. I wanna know, whats so wrong with me? I tried so hard. I made you little gifts, I took you places, I bought you things, I was there for you when you cried, I was there when your family turned on you, when you found out your aunt had cancer, when you found out you uncle who seemed like a dad to you was getting a divorce, when your dogs died - when you needed help with anything I was there. You say you love me and miss me but don’t want me. Someone tell me what to do, I can’t think straight, I’m lost without you.
