1019) Sometimes, I sneak out with this guy late at night and we don’t do anything that would break the law. Sometimes, we lay down on a blanket and just look at the stars or kiss. I feel different with him, not embarrassed, but in love. Every time I am with him I get butterflies and I can’t stand to be away from him. It’s a good thing we go to school together. I think I might be in love with him.
1018) my boyfriend is the best thing i could have ever dreamt of, i could spend every minute of everyday with him and never get sick of him. we get along perfectly, rarely ever fight, we’re pretty much the same person. but i always find myself not trusting him, never believing the things he says to me.
yet i tell him i believe him, merely just for the sake of not getting anything started. deep down, i always doubt the things that he says are true. i feel like if i’ve forgiven him, than i need to forget, but i find myself not being able to do that. i find myself giving him the satisfaction of hurting me, multiple times before, yet still running back to him. i’m at a loss of which way to go.
1017) I know you live thousands of miles away but every now and then I pretend that you are right beside me, just because it seems like you are the only friend I have.
1016) Looking back the only thing that kept me from kissing you that night was that I thought I had bad breath. How pathetic. Bad breath kept me from falling in love with you. Bad breath kept me from finding happiness. If there is something I have learned from this than it’s that you should alway have gum in your pocket.
1015) Looking through the newsfeed on FB I am very much envy of those who have picture perfect friendships and doing great things about their life. Envying doesn’t do the cut I suppose. I kept on wondering how come I can never get those “friendship” thing like others do.
I often come close to a friend and realize they’re just phonies that leech on you cause they’re in shit and when you dug hard to get them out of it they just leave you. Maybe I’m just saying this cause I feel lonely or empty. I have “friends” but I feel sick of being the initiator, trying to please them, trying to make someone like me. I try hard to not make them feel I’m needy, I put up a strong front so I wont get hurt. I just do not know what to do at this point now. Is it because of me that things had turn out this way? Why do I always have to be the one who initiates? Why when I think about who I have to count on, the only person I h ave is the boyfriend? If things ended with the boyfriend.. who am I gonna turn to?
1014) Every time I see him, or even have the slightest thought of him, my stomach fills with butterflies. Everything about him makes my heart pound, from the way he walks, to his laugh, the way he hugs me, his gorgeous lips, all of it makes my muscles tense and I have to remind myself to breathe. I am head over heels in love with him, and I don’t know why. It hurts so much that i’m not with him, and knowing that he probably will never feel the same way. I cant believe i’m about to submit this but…. I love you Ryan ♥
1013) Everyday gets harder and harder. Everyday seems less like its worth living. The only thing that really kept me going was my diary, when my family read that everything turned to hell. I have no one to trust and all my pain, hurt and anger has to be kept in me and the only way to try and release it is to cut.
1011) I love a girl I barely talk to. I see her and I get choked up. Last year, I had the chance but I was shy. She thinks I’m gay now.
1010) He was so cute. I looked at him and my heart stopped. But he doesn’t love me back. I admit. I begged, I pleaded, I was desperate. Every guy I’ve ever liked has rejected me. I’m fourteen and I’ve never been kissed before. I’ve never had a boyfriend. I just want to curl up and cry. I feel like something’s wrong with ME. I feel like there’s something about me that turns guys away. I just want someone to love me that way, is that too much to ask?
1009) I’ve known you for a pretty long time, and you were always in my circle. We share so many interests and have tons of common friends and we do a lot of things together. But i don’t know, we never really talk, like, having a genuine and honest and sincere conversation. I mean… I know what you do, but now that I think about it, I guess I don’t know who you are.
So I started to think if this is even a friendship, because i can’t even open up to you about the serious stuff. But you’re always around. The jokes are always around, and so are the awkward moments like when we’re about to part ways and I don’t know if I should just wave or offer a hug. But what sucks even more is that I’ve started to like you, like a whole lot, and you have no freaking idea. I hate myself for giving in to hormones, to feelings, for having gone soft… for imagining stupid scenes where you finally say that you see me more as your <insert activity here> buddy. I hate myself for being such a girl and I hate you for being so real and unreal at the same time. And now you just make it more painful every time you include me in your plans, along with everybody else.
1008) I’ve been liking this boy for, umm, about 5 years now. And you know that psychological studies, when you like someone more than 4 months it’s not a crush anymore, it’s more. And he’s perfect to me. I’ve made a complete fool in front of him 123536476879 times, and he prolly thinks I’m a jackass.
And so, this school year, this new boy came to our class. I don’t think he’s prettier than boy #1, but he’s very pretty, about 75% off of boy #1, if you get me. But here’s the thing. 1: I’ve stopped liking boy #1; 2: I’ve started liking boy #2; 3: I’v never really had friends. So, do I go back to #1, fall for #2 or just be friends with #2, cause he’s new, he doesn’t know me at all and it’s a fresh start for making friends, or am I just desperate for affection?! Help me.
1007) I don’t know how to imagine a future with someone. To imagine going on dates and finding someone who shares things with me. I’m so used to being alone that I’ve stopped believing in love. Now, he comes along. I can’t get him off my mind but there are so many beautiful girls in our school and he could have any of them. Why would he possibly want me? Maybe I’m destined to be alone.
1006) We are a couple for almost 6 years. We are lesbian but the best couples you will ever met. I’m actually the girly one But the toughest and the most dominant one because I was born to be like this. I was raise with abused with incomplete family.
From 3-4 years that we are still together (college years) I started to get abusive I slapped, kick, punch and also puling her hair even its short whenever we are about to argue. I cant stop my hands or my mind to stop doing that things. She was really really mad at me and we broke for a couple of times already since I started doing it to her. A lot of things happened that time but still I begged her not to let go of me because I really love her and she stayed. i saw how serious she is on breaking up with me. I also used harsh, painful words to her. But after saying that I just realized what ive said. Today I already stopped physically abusing her. I just cant stop saying harsh things to her. Since we already graduated last year we no w need to get a real job and earn. She has a job and shes happy with it and I am stuck here at the house with my laptop and our dog. Im the gf with so many questions in my head wether where shes going, why do you have this like that, whats with this and so on. Shes really annoyed on what im doing to her. SHe just recently told me that shes already pissed with me asking all the things shes doing. Im like saying sorry and crying through text because shes on her trip now for her work, the only communication is thru text or call only. Im now bothered because am I doing the things right? Am I overreacting again? DOES SHE STILL DESERVES ME?? I cant say things on other social sites because I have friends there and they might ask whats happening to me. Im stuck in here depressed with a lot of things. I also have the tendency to get very mad without any explanations. Do i need to start an anger management session? I really want to change myself I want to have a new me. for her and f or our relationship but I still feel that she deserves someone else to love than me. If you ask me she’ll be the perfect partner that you want to meet and be with and im the opposite. Her family loves me my family loves her its all perfect, we have a dog its about time for us to have a family just to earn a little then we could already rent a condo/apartment so that we could live together on our own. But the things is our relationship is not healthy anymore. I know that she loves me but I know also that part of her is already tired of explaining and saying stuff to me. As for me I love her really I cant seem to see my life w/o her but I dont know I just wanna be ready on whatever phase would come between us. Because if she decided to break up with me at least im ready. Im ready physically but emotionally i don’t know. I just don’t know the answers to my questions.
